See me...feel me...touch me
I know that my blog is not the original meaning of the song from Tommy, but the lyrics kinda mean something with how I'm feeling. I have been told that I am too sensitive, overly sensitive, thin skinned, touchy, emotional, etc.
I’m not a hard ass and I’m not a bitch. Oh how I wish I was. I’ve tried and failed. It’s not in my make up. It’s not who I am. When it all comes down to it, I’m an emotional freak. It bothers me. It makes people uncomfortable. I get irritated with myself.
Nevertheless, here I am. I’m a mess right now. My emotions are rolling up and down throughout the day. I miss people in my life, I love people in my life, my feelings get hurt, my feelings are raw. I read into things. Over analyze. I need constant reassurance that I am worthy. I get confused.
I am high maintenance. Not in the sense of needing things. But in needing love. Needing reassurance. The intangibles. It’s not anyone else’s responsibility to pet me and tell me I mean something. The raw core of it is that I need them to. I don't know if I am in existence unless someone else sees me...feels me...touches me. Without it, I don’t know that I’m okay in the world.
Does it really matter if I’m okay in the world?
Will I ever be okay with myself?
Too sensitive, overly sensitive, thin skinned, touchy, emotional, etc. Wow, I've been called all those things, especially etc. Your openness, honesty, and willingness are beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you different, babe. We are who we are. We are all shining stars. -KB
ReplyDeleteWhat goes, lady? BTW, I'll find my phone and charge it if you need to text me tomorrow, I love you! Breezy
ReplyDeleteYou are brave for exploring your issues and feelings. Most people are not that brave therefore the addictions flourish. Love you and proud of you. And yes you will be ok with yourself.
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Baby, you are so important to so many, never let yourself feel any other way. Your caring, helpfulness and compassion are spectacular. I am sorry that sometimes, the way you are treated in return makes you feel down sometimes, but never stop being you! It is one of the main things that makes me love you more and more everyday.
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