Stop this ride!!!

The universe seems to have its own highs and lows. When the universe goes on one of its roller coaster mood swings the people existing within going along for the ride without even having a say so.

I think the universe if having some issues right now. It seems that everyone is topsy turvy.

My face is falling apart. Ok, not my face, my teeth. I have to remove all of my top teeth. Yay!
There is no saving them. Too much trauma, too much time has passed. In the process of having them poked, prodded and yanked on they have become irritated and swollen. Infection has been stirred up and teeth that did not hurt before are now intensely throbbing. One tooth has a searing pain run through it every few hours that makes me want to jump off a bridge. I have an extremely high tolerance for pain. So when it brings me to tears you know it fucking hurts. I am quite attractive with one swollen cheek this evening. I’m in between emotions because of too many pain pills and not enough regular pills. Mashed potatoes, pudding and super soft chicken are getting on my nerves. Even though Jason's potatoes are amazing.

My mother has been in such extreme pain with a lower back problem that she has been unable to leave the house for over a week. She’s not even going to church, which for her is a big deal. I watched as she went through an exam today with a pain management specialist and her reactions made me wince every time she moved.

I have one friend who is having a cancer scare. She went to a specialist a couple of days ago and came out stunned and crying. Tests are coming soon to give further answers, but in the meantime she is distraught and panicked.

I have one friend whose mother is slowly passing away. She has fought an illness for a long time and is tired. She is ready to let go. My friend just celebrated his birthday holding her hand, kissing her forehead and trying to be grateful.

I have one friend who is buried under emotions due to a sibling with health problems and a recent experience with a “friend”, whom as you can tell from the word being in quotes, is not truly a friend.

I have one friend who is struggling with depression and trying to get her doctor to help her stabilize her meds. She has been suicidal this week and is trying hard to find a reason to stick around.

We had a full moon this past week but it is definitely more than that. I want to reach out to all of my loved ones and embrace them. I want to help them take deep breaths and move through this really screwed up period of time. I’m trying and I hope they know that. I hope they can feel my hand in theirs, even if sometimes it is just in spirit.

We are all a big mess. The universe is in turmoil and we are along for the ride. I don’t know about you, but I’m ready to jump the fuck off this thing.