What is in store

2011 begins...

I have big plans for my life. I am hoping that I can not only fulfill the goals I have set, but also create new goals along the path.

It is the year to make dreams come true. We will be creating a new world for ourselves and I am excited to see how it unfolds. There are always grand ideas in the beginning. As time moves forward, the plans change and grow and shrink and turn. I need to be ready for some disappointments and some pleasant surprises. If Jason and I can support eachother and remain a united team, I think the experiences we face, whether good or bad, will all be manageable. The biggest issue will be reminding ourselves and eachother of this.

Our house will see some changes. Big ones.
We will have more reliable vehicles.

On a personal note...

My motto for the new year is: The only person I need to impress is the woman in the mirror.

There are great things in my future! I will be balancing my time more. When I want to have time with a friend, I will schedule it. It sounds so cold when I put it that way. And it certainly does not mean that all spontaneity is gone. It only means that in order to spend quality time with people who want to spend quality time with me is to balance it out with everything else in my life. My time can be limited some weeks...months. I am going to stop talking about balancing and setting up boundaries and not spreading myself so thin and finally act on it. Words are just words and they don't change how my life is going. I am going to work hard to bring my therapy lessons to fruition.

Part of my time management includes Brenda Time. I'm not sure exactly what that will look like at the moment, but I have some ideas of how I'd like to begin.
Beginning on January 4th I am going to try a water walking class at my local recreation center. It is twice a week for an hour. I have never done this before and I am completely freaked out. But, I am going to try it. If it sucks, then I stop. Simple as that.
In February there is a two hour Saturday class that I am going to attend. It is Transformational Breathwork. It is described in these words:
"Consider the pattern of breathing as a metaphor of how we live our lives. As we restrict our breathing, dampen and repress our emotional responses, we are likewise restricting our lives. By focusing our minds and directing our breath, we open ourselves to a more positive and healthier life experience. Needless to say, as our emotional life opens, physical restrictions resolve. These experiences change our perceptions and resolve stress. I invite you to create this experience yourself. Bring a blanket, pad and pillow for this class. The breathing segment will be done lying on the floor."

In March, there is a Beginning Swing dance class on Mondays that I want to take. I am hoping that Jason will attend with me, but if he's not up for it, then I will see if I can go without a partner.

I would also like to plan a retreat. I'm not completely sure on the ins and outs of this. I'm still in the research phase.

Let's not forget a huge first for me (and Jason)! We are going on our first week long trip without Joshua. Our honeymoon after almost 12 years of marriage. I think my mother is settling in to the idea. I want to go without worry and fear. I want to go with romance and love and bonding in mind. I hope Jason wants the same thing. I have a horrible habit of creating a fantasy script in my head of what I want to happen. All I want to focus on is having fun and being together. 12 days until we leave!

I am excited about what lies ahead. I'm nervous and have major anxieties but I will push through as far as I can and try my best to make my dreams come true.