Annoying

I can start out this entry being completely honest and say that I have begun another day with tears. It's something I'm getting really tired of. I bet you are too.

I apologize for being annoying. Seriously. It must be getting on your nerves really badly. Every blog entry is another whining boohoo message. Ugh. I cannot, however, apologize for being me. I use this blog to pour my heart out. It is mine to do with what I wish. And it is your choice to read it or not. But, I don't want to irritate the shit out of you either! I like to know that people read my blog. So if I am annoying you, please know that this phase will pass. As with all bipolar people, there are extremes to both poles, but also middle ground. I need to allow my mind to reach the middle ground again. That means I cannot force anything, I have to just ride the waves. If I push too hard, it shoves everything down inside and never gets dealt with. Years of therapy have taught me to just let this happen and eventually it will calm down. The only thing I can do is flow with it and keep myself in check.

Thanks for hanging in there with me. You all know that I will pull out of this. Having support from those who care honestly does help. I am sorry if I am annoying in the meantime.